WOW! I can't believe the time has come. The day i've been waiting for, a glorious second chance to live the life I was meant to. Praise God! Crazy as it sounds, it doesnt seem real yet. I don't think it will, til I've boarded the plane, and flying across the country.
I'm almost ready to leave, my huge suitcase is almost packed, and when I say huge, I mean this sucker could fit a third world country in it. Haha its that big. Honestly, I didnt know they came so BIG. The resort sent me a check list, some stuff practical, like well, sunscreen, and band-aides, fitness apparel and so forth. The item i wasnt expecting to be on there, FIRST AIDE KIT. Ummmm that makes me a little nervous, what kind of aide am I going to be needing? Dear Jesus, keep me safe. HAHA! All in all, I think Im ready. My minds ready, my heart too for the most part, Im just going to miss everyone. The people who have seen me at my worst, who have walked with me, who despite my hurts and hurting them, have loved me through this addiction. To the newer people who have entered my life, who love me right where I'm at, who choose to support and encourage me. You ALL blow my mind. Yes, I'm going to Utah for me, to get healthy, to understand why I am the way I am, to learn to love myself, all the while Im becoming better, for each of you. If I love myself, Ill love all of you alot better too. This is another chapter, an unpredictable, life altering, hard, beautiful, crazy chapter. Cant wait for all of you to read it, and maybe somehow your lives will be changed along the way as well. Ill catch you soon.
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