"Play Big"

Hello Friends, let me just say that as I write this, my eyes are heavy, my body achy and sore, my feet feel like bricks, did I mention my eyes are heavy? Sweet goodness, am I tired. Week 3 has definitely been the hardest so far for me. Week 3 is what I would call my "blah" week, yes I had my moments of pure joy, but mainly it was feelings of "I don't think my body can go on, what am I doing here, and I just wanna die right now." The beautiful thing is despite all those negative thoughts, fed directly from the enemy I got out of bed every morning by counteracting those thoughts by saying these words(Which one of the trainers says all the time) out loud, "You dont play small, you play big, because you can, and because youre worth it." Let me tell you it helps. Telling myself that Im worth it is a foreign concept to me, a phrase id toss out there to kind of test it out, and bring back in again because I just didnt feel or believe that about myself, truthfully I still dont, im getting there, and its a beautiful, wonderful thing. I met with the life coach here, who is absolutely out of this world amazing and she understands my feelings of not feeling worth it, or loveable, or different, or invisible, and she said to me, "You werent a mistake, you have a purpsose, and you are strong." That resonated with me, i sang it to myself when I was "running" on the treadmill, ok, jogging, I was jogging on the treadmill, and I may not believe fully that Im worth it, but after being here 3 weeks seeing the kind of stuff my body can do, I know im strong, and thats one thing I can focus on to make me better, because I want to see my purpose fulfilled. My roommate her name is Tawny, and she is incredible, weve become fast friends and she said being here at Fitness Ridge, gave her, her voice back. It really does, it challenges you, and pushes you, and wears you down, but it teaches and uplifts you even more. Ive never had so much confidence, here I dont feel fat, or ugly, or an outsider, im just me and that is just fine with everybody else. Thank you Jesus, for this second chance at life, at hope. I challenge you all this week, to challenge yourself to do something you never thought you could, even if its only for 5 minutes, like for me I ran sprints if you want to call them that up and down the basketball court, just 6, and it felt sooo good, I havent done that for years. "Try it, you'll love it."- Sharon Reade a trainer here. Blessings to you all. Play Big, because youre meant for big things.