A New Year, A Brand New Start!

Hello All, its been ages since ive posted anything, I hope this finds you all well. Being New Years Eve, and all, a time when everyone is reflective, and nostalgic, frantically writing down their new years resolutions, many of which we will not live out past January. LETS BE HONEST. Im guilty of it too. I thought i'd set a challenge. 2011 was a year of such goodness and freedom for me, that I am just hoping 2012 can live up to it. My New Years Resolution started in the summer, call me a cheater if you must, but its the first one I actually have stuck with, and its a simple one, TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT MYSELF. For me it was going to Utah, going to Fitness Ridge, and gaining a whole new perspective. The hardest part about a New Years Resolution is starting it, sticking to your word. A wise amazing woman once said to me,"You dont have be great to start, but you have to start to be great." See, its all about the start. Looking for the finish line, will only get you frustrated and annoyed, just look to the end of the day, you can do it til its dark out, til your head hits the pillow. Sometimes, I will want something sweet at the end of the day. Wanting something sweet isnt bad, its over indulging in that sweet that gets me, so when that over whelming feeling comes over me, I will look on my phone for a "Fat" picture of me, and I just cant do it. Its not worth the 3 hrs of working out I did that day, and the progress im making. Not to say I dont slip up, and eat that overwhelming sweet, or greasy amazing pizza, I do, and I will again, but its what I do after that, that matters.
    My challenge to all of you, is to just start. Every single morning is a new start, Gods mercies are new every morning, the beauty is that everyday the slate is clean. So, when you start, and mess up, dont give up, just start again the next day. And realize that you arent alone, in the starting process. Whether, its losing weight, or not drinking pop, or quitting smoking, or eating after 7, or running a marathon. Just start. One Minute, One Hour, One Day at a time. I promise, you will see results, and freedom. Be encouraged the power that you hold. And remember youre worth it, and so are those you love. Have a Blessed new year, and a great START to a new you.

And So Life Begins!

Greetings and salutations to all of you, I hope youre all doing well, and enjoying fall. In Southern Utah its still summer, its been between 96 and 100 degrees all week, and it looks like next week isnt going to be any cooler. IM ready for a little bit cool in my life right about now. IM ROASTING!
  Lifes been good thus far with the new family and place of residence. Its also been a hard week, as I continue to transition, and learn. Its been tough the past couple of weeks, because Ive had so much down time, and im not use to that, so ive been trying to fill the gaps between workouts with little things, even walking a friends dog a few days this week. Oh yeah, thats what i call living the dream. As I find my groove here in St. George, life is beginning to look a bit more real, which is good. I just got a job, thank the good Lord. I applied to work at Fitness Ridge, the place that changed my life, is now gonna be apart of my life forever. Well, hopefully. God is so good.  All the staff that talked to me before coming, or saw me as I first came cant believe that this is where Im ending up. They're all really excited and supportive. I just reflect back to when I first came here, and knowing that this is where I belonged, and I started praying that God would give me a job there. I applied after 3 wks of being there, and there were no open positions, and then 3 weeks before I left the Guest Services Manager asked me how Id feel about working there. Uhhh all I said is Tell me where to sign. God, really does care about even the littlest things, his way is better than I could have ever hoped for or imagined.  Thank you Jesus! Also, I found a church around here that I like, which is no easy task in Utah, if ya know what im sayin'. Life is just getting sweeter and sweeter, everyday. Im so happy. Thats all Ive got for now, on my so life. Thanks for reading. Stay strong, Stay True, Stay Beautiful.

St. George Living, oh so nice

Hello All, hope everyone had a good week, and are enjoying there Sunday off with rest and recooperation. Its been a week since I graduated, and moved on with my healthy life style. Its been easier than I anticipated, I suppose it helps though that I live with a personal trainer. Who every morning asks,"What workout are you going to do today?" Being held accountable is a good thing for me. She makes healthy meals, and doesnt have hardly any junk food in this house, again BONUS! Basically, shes an angel and so is her family. Nicole, has 4 kids, 3 girls and one outnumbered little boy. I love the rambunctionus of it all, 3 girls is a blessing to me too, I feel like im with my 3 sisters at home, with the bickering, bathroom madness, clothes sharing, and undying loyalty. Just proof that God cares so much about the little things in life, I am so blessed.
   Not to say this week hasnt had its hardships, because it has. Although, im living with a personal trainer, it was stilll an adjustment, as I had to get use to having more time on my hands, not having every minute of my day scheduled out, every meal prepped and ready with the amount of calories each thing possess. I felt a little lonely this week, away from friends that I made, and my family. It suddenly became real to me that Im really not going home. Saying goodbye to my mom and nanny, was just as hard the second time, and I wasnt anticipating that at all. Suddenly Christmas is sounding so good to me, because ill be home then, hopefully. St. George really is an incredible place to be, as I drove to church today I was once again blown away by the majesty of creation, the beauty never gets old, in fact everyday it looks different. God is magnificent. I must admit I do however miss the changing of the leaves, the cool crisp air, sweat shirt weather, and bonfires. Its a whole different kind of fall here, but beautiful none the less. I hope some of you come and visit me, this place will blow you away. Be blessed by who God made you, remember you CAN because youre worth it.

It starts with Today!

Hello again, I hope this finds everyone well and happy. Today, was the first day of the rest of my life, as it was my first day away from the ridge, I think i did pretty well too. I went with my mom, nanny, and a trainer from the ridge, Gretchen, on a 5 mile hike at Zion National Park. IT was the most spectacular hike ive ever done. Thats saying alot because since ive been here, the hikes have been what ive dreaded most because, they challenge me so, but I LOVED this one. Plus, I got to share a bit of my new life with my mom. It was such a blessing, she rocked it too, considering that it was 2.5 miles STRAIGHT up, man was she moving. We all had a great time, and were able to place a flag at the top in honor of all those who lost in 9/11 and those who served and are serving this beautiful country we live in.
  For those of you who dont know, I am staying in Utah. My Mom and Nanny(Grandma) surprised me by driving my car down here, to come to my graduation, from Fitness Ridge. I had noooo idea they were coming, and when I saw my mom sitting outside the lecture hall in the afternoon, all I could yell was "Shut Up, Shut Up!" I was sooo happy to see them. They drove 1800 miles, halfway across the country to come see me, I am so blessed. It feels so amazing to introduce them to my new life, and the new people. Tomorrow I get to show my mom and nanny my new home, and my new adopted family. Ill be living with one of the most amazing people God could have created, she is a trainer at the ridge her name is Nicole. They story of how this came about is so cool, such a God thing. My prayers were answered by her, and she is letting me stay with her, even though she has 4 kids, a dog, and a life. I am sooooo blessed. I knew this is where I belonged. God is good, and I am learning more and more about the ways He loves me. Ive never felt more loved by Him than I have since coming here, because being here has been better than I could have hoped for or imagined. Thank you Father. Nicole, thank you so much, I am excited to be apart of your family. I hope someday I can give back to you even more. So, if any of you want a cool vacation spot come to Utah, its seriously so amazing. Cant wait to continue to share my triumphs and struggles as I continue this journey. Stay tuned y'all. I love you guys.

The Constant Change of Life

Hello, happy Sunday to everyone. I hope your day is full of relaxation, restoration, and love. I just finished my 7th week here at Fitness Ridge, where does the time go? I'm telling you, time does not exist here. It seems as though I just got here, and now my time is almost done. Many of you may be wondering what I may be feeling about to head home, enter back into real life, continue this journey without 7 hrs dedicated to working out a day, or a trainer lovingly yelling at you to GO FASTER, and YOU CAN, YOURE WORTH IT. I just wanted to tell all of you, that well.... I'm not coming HOME! Not for a while anyway. I have an opportunity to stay here in Utah, and when I can disclose more info on the matter, I will. Just know that God is soooo good. This is an answer to my prayers, and my families as well. Here's the thing, Im  not ready to enter back into real life yet, I still have so much to figure out, and learn, and with Gods help, and the people ive met here, I know the only option I have is to succeed. Its the constant change of life, if you would have asked me 7 weeks ago, if I thought I was going to live in Utah, I prolly would have laughed at you and made a weird face, but after being here a week, I knew, I just knew, this place, these people had to be a part of me.  Though this change and transition is a bittersweet one, I know Im doing the right thing. I am going to get a part time job, and continue to mainly focus on my health and me right now. Which is a blessing beyond measure. PRAISE GOD! I can tell everyone more details next week, as I finish up my race here, all in all, Ive had the time of my life, even with blisters, and ripped up feet, sun burn, soreness, tears, sweat, hardships, break through, homesickeness, and being exhausted beyond belief,  I wouldn't trade this for anything in the world. It's not just about what I've lost around my waist line, but what i've gained spiritually, mentally, and emotionally, I've been changed for good.
   A quote that is said around here, and I am paraphrasing, goes something like this "Feed your faith, because then your fear has no way of finding you." Have faith in yourself. Be honored and humbled by the fact that every morning you get up and are able to move, and walk, and see. Not everyone can, so try to have the attitude of I get to exercise, not I have to. Nicole, a trainer who works here, says if she has an hr in her day to exercise,thats her time, for that hour shes not a mom, a teacher, a counselor, thats her time, to be alone with her thoughts, to push her body and enjoy the fact that she is still able. That encouraged me, and shed light on things, I hope it does the same for all of you. Be blessed. Ill see you all soon. Like Christmas. I love you guys.

Im Changed for the Better!

Hello All, Happy Sunday to you all! I love Sunday's, its my only day off, I get to sleep in, and lounge, and prep for yet another week, of busy, hard core, life altering working out, and classes.  I just finished my 6th week here, I cant believe how fast its gone. Only 2 weeks left of being here at the camp and I just don't know how to feel about it? Its sad to leave behind this family Ive created, this new life, and scary thinking about entering back into the real world. I just don't know if I'm ready? I am going to try with all my might not to have FEAR because Fear is False Evidence Appearing Real, and I've lived in fear long enough, I lived in bondage long enough, I'm ready to to be free! Although, its a slow process Im better than before. I feel more alive, and happy than I have in a long time.
   Every Friday at 1:15 all the stay over guests gather in the aerobics room with the trainers and we just kind refresh and connect, and we go around the room and share a victory that we've had this week. Most share of a physical battle they over came, or a hike they conquered that they didnt before, or that they ran on the treadmill. Then it came to me, I was the very last, and I was thinking and thinking and I was having a hard time coming up with something. I cant think for the life of me why? Then in a moment it came to me. I said "For me this week wasn't about what I conquered on the Hike or on the Elliptical, this week, I found beauty in who I've become, and who i'm becoming." That was a beautiful thing. I even made a trainer cry, that wasn't the plan though, she just felt so moved and so happy that I found that. I am very loved here, its amazing! I feel like this is where I belong, this is where I'll find my freedom. Thank you Jesus. Be encouraged by that, because weight loss isnt always just about the numbers, its about the feeling, about the heart behind your journey, its about becoming and transforming. Stay strong! Don't cheat yourself, and don't think you cant. I love you all. Be blessed.

p.s. I do have a bit of news, and when I am able to share it, I will. God is good.

The Hardest Day of All!

  Hello, I hope you are all doing well. As I write this today, I am just a little blue, my heart just isn't the same. Today, I had to say goodbye, the absolute worst word in the history of words. I hate goodbyes, I am no good at them. There are 4 woman who left this weekend from Fitness Ridge, my crew, my friends, my sisters, and now without them here, I feel a little emptier, a little sad. Although, we all made sure to stay in touch, to encourage, and to support one another, something about their absence that will make my remaining 3 weeks a little bit rougher. We called ourselves the 5 hearts, and we all seemed to beat a little faster, push a little stronger, laugh a little harder with one another around, I promised them to stay strong, to stay focused, and to do well, and thats what Im gonna do. So, to you Annie Sarmaroy, Ellen Zwarenstyen, Harmony Stillwell, and Rauni Malhi, I will always be grateful. Thanks for making me better, and helping me see my worth and potential. I LOVE YOU ALL!  Now lets do this.
  Ok, now that the sappy part is out of the way, I just wanted to share that this past week has been the best yet. My friend Ellen and I, re wrote the words to a a popular song by Cee Lo Green called "Forget You" on a 10 hour road trip last weekend. We wanted to do something special for the trainers, and so we made a song that included each of them and our stay here at the Ridge. Rauni, Ellen, and Annie, they were the dancers, and boy was it a fun week, trying to learn the words, and dances, in the midst of a 12 hr day. I wanted it to be good. They all thought I was a Nazi, for the practicing, haha! It paid off though, Friday night came went off without a hitch. We wore bright yellow hiking guide shirts, hats that the trainers all wear, and we went to town. How fun it was. All the trainers had their phones out recording, they were laughing and crying, and it wasnt even a sad song. They said they felt so blessed, and no one has ever done anything like that before at the ridge, so we made Ridge History, hahaha! I had a blast. A guests family member offered to pay for studio time and travel, if I ever wanted to sing professionally. I was so shocked by that, I never thought of singing as a career before, but you never know, I may have to take him up on that offer sometime. All in All it was a great week, until today, when the sadness hits of my friends gone, and new arrivals coming in. I know God is good, and He is going to bring new people into my life, that I will connect with and bond with. I'm so thankful for that.
  My dad is coming to visit me today, and I couldnt be happier. He surprised me and is going to stay a night, and meet my new little world. I am thrilled. He is the greatest dad there ever was. I love him. Its been a beautiful, hard, life changing week. I love this place, and Im going to bring it back home with me. Continue to stay strong, say one positive thing about yourself a day, or one positive thing you accomplished that day, say it out loud and be proud of it. Blessings to you all.

It's the Fight of Your Life!

Hello all, I apologize for the late update. I got really busy this last week, with you know working out 7 hrs a day and then cherishing time with my friends who are leaving, I found a few minutes in my crazy schedule to give updates to all who may want them.
    Last week was a great week! Honestly, its all a blur. I found myself excited for everyday, yes even with the 7 hrs of working out. You know whats so beautiful about those 7 hrs? I see myself growing every hour, and I am surrounded by an amazing group of people who understand my struggle, and were all cheering each other on, and laughing, we become one big family, and we leave no one behind. Every Wednesday we do this cardio class called Mountain. Its where you get on a cardio machine(Elliptical, Tread Mill, Bike) and you try to keep a steady pace, while increasing your incline every 3 minutes, and you do that 8-10 times, so by those high numbers you feel as though youre actually climbing a mountain. Wednesdays, are always rough days at the Ridge because you're tired, your muscles are fatigued, and sometimes you feel as though youve got nothing left to give. Then there is this moment, it feels unreal, im  right in the middle of climbing the mountain, its the middle of the day and week, and I look down at my treadmill and I realize that im jogging on an incline of 7, jogging. Oh the smile that came over my face, was enough to light a cave in the desert. I was so HAPPY! I could not have done that a month ago. Praise God!
     Friday came and we have graduation every friday, where we celebrate our week and our accomplishments, and we give praise to those who are leaving. Its over all a good time. Our guest services manager, her name is Danae came to join us, a beautiful woman, who is kind but a pistol, hard core, and genuine, and she told a story that hasn't left my mind since. She stood up voice shaky, demeanor soft and she just told us how we cant give up, we have to fight like hell for ourselves. We hear that here often, so it just felt like the same old thing, but as she proceeded to talk she told us how here beautiful, smart, talented, daughter with a husband and young child has brain cancer. As I watch her face soaken with tears, and heart broken the fierceness in her voice, was enough to make me want to go and find a cure for her daughter. She said that we are all special, and worth it, and we have the chance to fight for our lives, and we should because we are able, over all healthy, and her daughter is sick, and becoming more immobile and she is fighting with all she has in her to LIVE. It moved me so much. I dont have cancer, I am an able body and I want to do more, see more, love more. It was an inspiring talk. I want to FIGHT, I need to. IF you think of it pray for this young woman, she is only 25, and has a lot to live for. Danae told me the Dr.'s said theres not much they can do. Its quality of life not quantity at this point. Be inspired by this story, know that you can do anything for a minute or 2. And to take advantage of your time, and the amazing body God gave to you. When exercising and you get to the point where you would normally stop because youre tired, push past it for 1 minute thats how you get out of the plateau and then the next time push it again by another minute, challenge your body, it can handle it, I promise. Your body will do, whatever your mind tells it to, whether you say you can or you cant, either way you're right. Stay strong, and be bold. Have a great week all.

"Play Big"

Hello Friends, let me just say that as I write this, my eyes are heavy, my body achy and sore, my feet feel like bricks, did I mention my eyes are heavy? Sweet goodness, am I tired. Week 3 has definitely been the hardest so far for me. Week 3 is what I would call my "blah" week, yes I had my moments of pure joy, but mainly it was feelings of "I don't think my body can go on, what am I doing here, and I just wanna die right now." The beautiful thing is despite all those negative thoughts, fed directly from the enemy I got out of bed every morning by counteracting those thoughts by saying these words(Which one of the trainers says all the time) out loud, "You dont play small, you play big, because you can, and because youre worth it." Let me tell you it helps. Telling myself that Im worth it is a foreign concept to me, a phrase id toss out there to kind of test it out, and bring back in again because I just didnt feel or believe that about myself, truthfully I still dont, im getting there, and its a beautiful, wonderful thing. I met with the life coach here, who is absolutely out of this world amazing and she understands my feelings of not feeling worth it, or loveable, or different, or invisible, and she said to me, "You werent a mistake, you have a purpsose, and you are strong." That resonated with me, i sang it to myself when I was "running" on the treadmill, ok, jogging, I was jogging on the treadmill, and I may not believe fully that Im worth it, but after being here 3 weeks seeing the kind of stuff my body can do, I know im strong, and thats one thing I can focus on to make me better, because I want to see my purpose fulfilled. My roommate her name is Tawny, and she is incredible, weve become fast friends and she said being here at Fitness Ridge, gave her, her voice back. It really does, it challenges you, and pushes you, and wears you down, but it teaches and uplifts you even more. Ive never had so much confidence, here I dont feel fat, or ugly, or an outsider, im just me and that is just fine with everybody else. Thank you Jesus, for this second chance at life, at hope. I challenge you all this week, to challenge yourself to do something you never thought you could, even if its only for 5 minutes, like for me I ran sprints if you want to call them that up and down the basketball court, just 6, and it felt sooo good, I havent done that for years. "Try it, you'll love it."- Sharon Reade a trainer here. Blessings to you all. Play Big, because youre meant for big things.

I think I Can!

Its hard to believe its been two weeks here at Fitness Ridge. Honestly, it feels like longer. This week especially. Being here is so much more than just losing weight, its about changing your mind, and throwing away bad habits, and old tricks. So much of my eating, and alot of other guests here, are tied to emotions.  I eat when im happy, sad, scared, depressed, frustrated, celebrating, whatever it may be, and here you cant do it, you fight through it. I had a tough time because being here has stretched me physically, emotionally and mentally. Im pushing myself all day, every day; through the heat, and the hills, and the water, that at the end of the day, ive got nothing left to give. Ready for a little story....
  Tuesday, was a particularly rough day for me, they call it "Teary Tuesday" here at the ridge, and lets just say my eyes were juicy a few times that day. I was hiking, and I was so tired that morning, my spirit was just down and my heart just wasnt in it, but I got up and I just said "I think I can, I think I can."  We went on my hike that  I consider so far to be my nemesis, oh sweet goodness its rough. It starts out up hill with crazy amounts of sand and lava rock, uhhhh, our goal is to get to the top of the mountain to a place called Piano Rock. My feet were sluggish, my legs ached, and my muscles were sore, and im climbing up the side of this rock 3,000 feet up, the piano shaped rock, 100 feet in my future, and I just fell on the side of this rock, crying because I simply couldn't go on. My lungs wouldnt let me and neither would my head. One hike guide stuck by me, his name is Matt, and he held my hand and hiked back with me. When you're doing things you never thought you could, and when you're tired, and homesick, you just give out a little. They say its good to cry here, you just have to let it out, and boy did I ever. I felt refreshed and renewed, after words. I continued with the other 5 hrs of working out I had that day, and yes another break down came again. Its a wonderful place to be, bc theres no judgement, just understanding, and comfort. During my break down, I found break through, as I continue to learn about myself, and my addiction. It really is a beautiful thing, even when it gets hard or daunting.  Success... Was mine at the end of the week, losing 6 pounds, making it 11 total in 2 wks. God is good,and I am victorious through Him. So, when you're at home exercising this week, just say "I think I can, I know I can, Im worth it." I promise it helps. Dont steal from yourself, play big. YOU CAN DO IT!

It hurts so good!

Its been 6 days since I walked through the doors of fitness ridge. I already feel as though Im not the same. If 6 days ago you asked me if I could hike 6 miles up hill over rocks, through caves, and over rivers, I would have told you, you must be dreaming.  Thats exactly what I did, and when my body told me I couldnt my mind said "You're worth it."  A saying that doesnt pass through my lips too often, and when after the 6 mile hike I had to do cardio for an hour straight and hard, I prayed and recited scripture over me.  God's word and truth about who we are is soooo powerful. Thank you Jesus. I had a victory at the end of my week too, losing 5.2 pounds, as Charlie Sheen would say "WIN!" I want to tell you all of the great people here....
      Lets start with the hike guides, everyone of them are as sweet and as pushy as can be. Hahaha! On your first day (Monday) at the ridge you go out on an assesment hike, and that determines what group you'll be put into, they have intro, beginner, intermediate group C,B, A, and then Advanced! Apparently I did well in my assesment hike and I was put into intermediate group c the lowest of the intermediate but still, its not as low as I had anticipated. Anyay, it was really hard, and everyday I wanted to die, but one of the hike guides would walk with me, and talk with me, and tell me I could do it... and I did. they are awesome.
      The trainers are unbelieveable, and understanding, yet cut throat, and relentless. One of the trainers favorite sayings while kicking our butts is "Try you'll love it." UHHHH negative, I actually want to punch you in the face right now. But it makes you better and stronger, and you end up amazing yourself. This week has been wonderful, daunting, hard, fun, and emotional. The guests here are loving and accepting, no matter the shape or size you are or them. They believe in you, when you dont, and you really do become a family here. Its a beautiful thing!  So far I love it here, and I know theres more challenges to come, and more victories I cant wait to see how God works, and how I grow during this time. Lets do this. If God is for me, who can be against me? I leave you with a random fact of Utah: They have a channel called Mormon tv. Hahaha! I think thats funny. Be blessed all.

Utah anyone?

WOW! I can't believe the time has come. The day i've been waiting for, a glorious second chance to live the life I was meant to. Praise God!  Crazy as it sounds, it doesnt seem real yet. I don't think it will, til I've boarded the plane, and flying across the country.
  I'm almost ready to leave, my huge suitcase is almost packed, and when I say huge, I mean this sucker could fit a third world country in it. Haha its that big. Honestly, I didnt know they came so BIG. The resort sent me a check list, some stuff practical, like well, sunscreen, and band-aides, fitness apparel and so forth. The item i wasnt expecting to be on there, FIRST AIDE KIT. Ummmm that makes me a little nervous, what kind of aide am I going to be needing? Dear Jesus, keep me safe. HAHA! All in all, I think Im ready. My minds ready, my heart too for the most part, Im just going to miss everyone. The people who have seen me at my worst, who have walked with me, who despite my hurts and hurting them, have loved me through this addiction. To the newer people who have entered my life, who love me right where I'm at, who choose to support and encourage me. You ALL blow my mind. Yes, I'm going to Utah for me, to get healthy, to understand why I am the way I am, to learn to love myself,  all the while Im becoming better, for each of you. If I love myself, Ill love all of you alot better too. This is another chapter, an unpredictable, life altering, hard, beautiful, crazy chapter. Cant wait for all of you to read it, and maybe somehow your lives will be changed along the way as well. Ill catch you soon.  

MY B/P is RISING!

 Hello, again, I can hardly believe that I leave in oh just 10 days.  Originally, I wasnt supposed to leave til the 31st and they called me up last week, so very casually, "Erica, we have you down for the 17th, and we wanted to follow up." Exact words! Oh well to my knowledge its the 31st, but ill play along. God is good, and I know he isnt gonna lead me to a place thats gonna harm or be bad for me. Turns out my roommate the first week im there, is a veteran of sorts to this camp. She'll be going into her 8th week, so Im blessed to have someone who can show me the ropes. Plus, im on the second floor, and I guess thats the "Place to be" great view, and no ones above you. Blessings, all around!
      As the day approaches, as I contine to pray and seek God, im reminded of my favorite verse "For I know the Plans,I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11 My futures looking brighter, and I couldn't be more excited and in anticipation to see whats in store for me. Yes, my blood pressure rises as the day gets closer out of both excitment and worry, but if God is for me who can be against me? Utah, can bring it on!!  Until next time, be blessed.

Utah here I come

Hello, to all who may be reading this. This is my first ever blog, im gonna be like blogzilla from now on. I should begin this new way of expression/entertainment/update on my life by explaining what "The Day is Approaching" means. In about 15 days(but whose counting) I will be headed to the lovely, hot,hill infested Utah. Why you ask? No, not to marry a mormon, or even find true love. Its a journey strictly meant for finding me. A journey to get healthy and climb some pretty awesome rocks in the process.  Drum Roll Please... Im heading out to a fitness camp, to work on, well, my fitness. Really its so much more than just that, its about challenging myself, believing in myself, and making some pretty cool friends in the process. Im a little nervous and alot excited for this new chapter in the new beginning of a new season of my life. For 2 months its gonna be all about me, and im just not use to that at all.  The days are long, the weather is hot, and the timing is perfect. Please join me on this journey as I begin to learn more about myself, and about the goodness of God. Share with me in my times of hardship, and tears, and triumphs, and joy. Lets go to Utah together.